I felt quite depressed while planning the future. It’s just awfully messy and the closer I got to the”interchange”, it’s getting harder and harder to achieve what I’ve been dreaming. I don’t want to blame anything or anyone, I know it’s all on me. I just feel a bit frustrated.
I’m afraid that God will slap me in my face again cause I hadn’t been very good in the past 21 years.
And scared that later, years later, I will look back and regret the decision I’m going to make.