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This past seven days has been a very tough week for me. Physically, mentally, spiritually, almost everything. That’s why I think I have to write something.
This story began in November 19th, 2009.
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Kamis. Hari ini exam 3003. Subjek paling mati dari 3 subjek legendaris EEE 2nd & 3rd year. Singkatnya, subjek ini susaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh banget. Buat gue dan (rasanya sih) sebagian besar populasi EEE NTU.
Gue mulai belajar super intensif untuk pelajaran ini dari hari Senin. Dan by Rabu malem, rasanya udah capekk banget. Capek belajar dan tetep nggak tau mau ngapain ketika disodorin soalnya. Capek memaksa diri sendiri belajar dan belajar lagi, tapi tetep nggak ngerti.
Gue sempet down malem itu. Bersyukur pacar bisa dateng. Bersyukur kalo dia juga tau rasanya menghadapi 3003.
Kamis jam 11 gue keluar dari Nanyang Audi. Lemes, nggak banyak ngomong, langsung beli junkfood dan pulang.
Those two hours in the exam hall were awful, but I’m thankful He let the rain poured down in the afternoon. Cooled the day and made me sleep comfortably.
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The next week, started at November 23rd was tougher, in every sense.
My exams were at 23rd-26th. Monday to Thursday. Senen-kamis. Tanpa jeda. Semuanya core subjects.
23 : EE3011 ~ control
24: EE4040 ~ engineers & society
25: EE3001 ~ electromagnetics
26: EE3015 ~ power systems
Gue baru mulai belajar lagi hari Jumat tanggal 20. Cuma 3 hari sebelum mulai rangkaian 4 exam. Plan gue tadinya mau belajar engsoc + 3015 hari jumat & sabtu. Hari Minggu mau dipake buat finalize yang buat hari Senen.
Tapi emang manusia cuma boleh berencana. Hari minggu siang abis pulang gereja, suddenly gue sakit. Period gitu, plus masuk angin dan malemnya diare. Ngaco banget deh. Nggak sempet ngerjain satupun pyp (past year paper). Dan berjam-jam gue cuma meringkuk kesakitan, nggak bisa ngapa2in.
Dalam doa gue malem itu, gue inget gue minta disembuhkan. Mungkin nggak malem itu, tapi gue berdoa supaya besok paginya saat exam gue bisa ngerjain tanpa kesakitan.
Well, doa gue nggak dikabulkan, apparently. Pagi-paginya gue masih sakit-sakit gitu, begitu juga saat menjelang masuk exam hall, dan saat lagi ngerjain soal. Tapi bersyukur, gue bener-bener bisa nerima itu semua.
At the end pas keluar exam hall, it was not so bad. Gue masih bisa ngerjain sebagian besar.
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Besoknya engsoc. Basically ini kayak PPKn jaman dulu deh. Ngarang all the way. I spent waktu yang tersisa buat baca rangkuman. Pas exam berhasil ngarang 11 halaman (nggak penuh sih) tapi yaudahlah.
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Besoknya lagi 3001. Disini pas gue drop lagi. Capek. Rasanya exam ga abis-abis. And I got less than 15 hours to review and practice for this subject. Otak rasanya nggak mampu diperes keluar terus diisi lagi secepet itu.
Tapi lagi-lagi I felt thankful. Kali ini nggak ada pacar, tapi andy rasanya selalu berderin setiap beberapa waktu. Ada aja sms encouragement dari temen-temen. Dari yang massal sampe yang personal. Gue bukan orang yang akan ngebales semuanya, tapi I thank you all who sent me those 
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My tears were broken, yet again, that night. I was down, but He lifted me up through my friends.
Exam ini nggak terlalu bisa sih. Tapi setelah ngelewatin 3003, rasanya selalu ada yang positif dari setiap exam. “At least yang ini better dari 3003.”
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Terakhir, hari ini, 3015. Exhaustion-nya masih kebawa-bawa sih, tapi uda bisa lebih bener belajarnya, meskipun pesimis juga. Nggak terlalu yakin dengan apa yang udah gue tulis, tapi gue rasa gue udah menulis (dan mengira-ngira) yang terbaik yang gue bisa.
Let Him decide what will I get.
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Seminggu ini bener-bener jadi ujian buat gue. Baru pernah gue 4 hari core berturut-turut. Capek, of course, tapi ya ada enaknya juga begitu semua udah kelar 
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Belajar untuk bener-bener pasrah sama Tuhan tanpa bertanya-tanya, bahkan ketika doa yang cukup critical nggak dikabulkan. Belajar untuk nerima bahwa memang kehendak Tuhan kalo gue cuma punya waktu setengah hari untuk finalize belajar subjek yang gue niat banget sem ini tapi Dia malah ngasih gue kesakitan buat mengisi waktu itu. Belajar untuk persistent. Belajar untuk self-rapid-recover after an exam breakdown.
Hopefully this is the first and last experience regarding 4-days-core-exams, but I certainly hope the lessons will continue
wandering in the rain
Somehow it occurs to me that, the most blind love of all probably is the love of a guy to his football club.
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He would stay until way past midnight to just get a glimpse of how’s the match going even though he has to wake up early for work on the next day.
He would ignore his spouse’s complaints about why they never spend time together again on weekend nights.
He would still cheer for his club even though they’ve lost a lot.
He would curse the opponent players who cause them a penalty, regardless it is fair or not.
He would blame everything other than his club if they concede.
Most probably, he will not change his number one club.
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Even though the club never know who he is.
as usual,
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I always post this seating arrangements.
Comment for this sem: how I wish that the part 4th year was right. Having a graduated (and working) bf makes me want to graduate and leave this school immediately. (Yeah I know I will miss it, but I can’t help but wish).
http://wp.me/pctgH-oo
I think every semester I complained about the level of tension in the pre-exam period. (I may not say it but to my heart, and I made a slight promise to myself to reduce my complaints). Yeah and now is pre-exam period. Time really does fly.
And there come all the ‘lasts’. Last mentoring session of this semester. Last KTB session. Last PM (this week), last PU (next week).
I will miss them all during exams. During those stressful and hectic times.
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Stop complaining, grab your notes (+ snacks), and start studying, girl.
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ps: the title is the shortlink for this post.
i think they’re not kidding when they say not worrying will make you live longer
Every month he has to take a day of non-paid leave. Yesterday he said he can’t get this Friday so he applied for today. And today I’m also ‘on-leave’ 
We didn’t do anything, just chat, lunch, I took a nice nap on his air-conned room while he was reading manga, another long chat, laugh together, and not worrying a single thing about our daily life. And the last one feels so good. Really.
But yes it has to end. And start worrying for many things to come. Me with a test, a presentation, and many tasks ahead. Him with a meeting, projects, and many sites he has to go to.
labreport
Tadi gue ngumpulin lab report gue untuk semester ini. Pas uda keluar dari labnya, gue baru menyadari satu hal. Report yang ini gue bikin bener-bener sendiri gara-gara nggak ada senior yang punya contohnya. Kayaknya dari dulu nggak pernah deh bikin report tanpa contoh satupun. Report yang ini cuma 12 halaman…tapi at least gue bikin sendiri (meskipun cuma copy paste program yang dikerjain di lab). Nggak penting sih, cuma rasanya seneng aja…hehe
Yesterday was a bad day.
But at least, the hall office tested the air-con in my room for two hours. Enough time to watch some series and cry until I fell asleep. And it feels so good to curl in your bed without having to roll every short time because you feel like sweating.
I think I messed up my life bit by bit.
I even had a little fight with him yesterday. But fortunately a long long talk and ferrero rochers are just enough to finish last night nicely. Thank God for chocolates!
it was not a perfect day
Hari ini dimulai jam 7.10am, snooze alarm 2kali, mandi, trus multitasking ganti baju+makeup+siap2in tas+buka laptop kepo2 buat persiapan interview.
8.30am mulai project (session terakhir jadi ada assessment). Harus leave early due to interview jadi assessmentnya juga mesti early. Case study nggak selesai -.-”. Hhh yaudah deh 1 AU ini. Bukan report pula.
11.05am nyampe di tempat interview. Sempet rada bingung kok masuk2 adanya car park & lift barang..ckck. Yauda hajar aja naik liftnya untung bener. Nyampe di tempatnya bingung dimana mau interview secara isinya lab semua di kiri-kanan. Akhirnya sampe juga di ruangan yang bener terus mulai deh interviewnya.
Abis interview langsung pulang deh. Ganti baju terus nanti ada kuis lagi -.-”. Dingin banget lagi mengundang tidur.
2.55pm udah mesti pergi lagi buat kuis 3.30. Ga terlalu sempet belajar banyak sih abis interview itu…dan lupa bawa kotak pensil! (untung ketemu parmo…fiuhh) Bersyukur sih kuisnya lumayan manageable ^^.
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It was not a perfect day, tapi tetep banyak yang bisa disyukuri. Masih bisa merasakan penyertaan Tuhan meskipun ga sempet doa sebelom interview (baru disuru nunggu di sofa tau2 uda dipanggil -.-”). Bersyukur buat bus C yang entah kenapa sangat friendly sama gw hari ini (cepet banget datengnya). Bersyukur buat kuis yang bisa dikerjain. Bersyukur untuk cuaca yang enak banget dan gue ga sampe keujanan seharian ini. Bersyukur untuk tiap perhatian dari pacar, mama & teman2
Bersyukur kalau kemanapun gue melihat, ada penyertaan Tuhan disitu.
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Masi ada satu hari lagi. I know I will survive. I just know.
Dan sabtunya…stomp!!
I feel like I was being myself.
But I did not look nor sound smart.
Well maybe because I am not smart at the first place 
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one more day to go on this hectic week. *tap on own shoulder*
I may not done everything well, but at least I survived.
a kid i taught today
Today I learned that I can learn from a secondary student. Sec 2 to be exact. She’s my mentee.
As usual, today I had a mentoring session. My mentee today said she wanted to learn science. Fyi, science in secondary curriculum is like combined science, it consists physics, chem, as well as bio. She asked me to teach all of them: energy & light (physics), states of matter (chem), and ecosystem (bio).
I really literally was amazed by her. I mean, she’s so curious. I was explaining about the difference of physical change and chemical change (I said physical changes are the ones which reversible) and I was just explaining about mixing which categorized as physical changes (I give an example salt+water when you can evaporate the water and get the salt back) when suddenly she asked: “Then what about jelly? After you mix the powder with water then freeze it, can you make it back to powder and water? Is it physical or chemical?”
I was stunned. I ask my friend who also have no idea, and we both came up with an answer, “I don’t know, but I think at the first place people don’t want to turn back jelly into powder.” Which is pathetically un-science
But the next surprise from her did not take a long time after that. I was starting to explain about greenhouse effect. First I try to explain about atmosphere. I began with this: “When God created the earth, He also created atmosphere.”
I didn’t really mean anything by saying this. All I want to say is at the very beginning, the atmosphere was already there. And I was preparing to explain the use of atmosphere. Then suddenly she said, “If God created the earth, He also created human? Then why there are so many surnames and different blood types?”
(Well actually I did not see the relation between ‘God created human’ and ‘there’re so many surnames’) But anyway, I said to her, “You want me to explain that first or greenhouse effect first?” Thank God she choose to learn the greenhouse effect first.
The surname thing I can explain quite nice. Blood type thing…well I wasn’t sure if she was satisfied with my answer. But I don’t think she care about it because she just suddenly popped out questions I never thought a sec 2 student will ask.
“When you die then where will you go?”
“When you die then what will you feel?”
“What happen with the baby aborted by it’s mother?”
I constantly prayed in silence when I gave her my answers. Sadly she didn’t really care about the afterlife, but I hope someday she will.
