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It has been a long looonnngggg time since I wrote! Exactly it’s been 11 days. 

Maybe there are some people wondering how am I doing. Well, I’m good. I skipped almost the whole classes after recess for the quizzes and because I wasn’t feeling well, but now I’m catching up. And I have an essay for my music module due to Good Friday, and I have no idea what I’m gonna write. So far the progress is 300 words of nothing. But the sun’s shining. And life’s good. It’s just the time is running out.

The doctor gave me lots of vitamins to be taken in the morning. Yeah well hopefully they’ll work. And my mum has cleaned my room! I’m soooo upset about it. Really. Now I can’t find anything because they’re all in other places. Argh!! I hate it when people clean my private space without my permission. I think now I better go outside to study, because everytime I look around, I feel upset again.

I’m happy my mum came, but as usual, I hate it when she’s trying to change me to someone I’m not. Someone more cheerful and someone more outgoing, more open. Control my temper and blah blah blah. Although life’s hard in Singapore, I’ve found my place here, most of the time. People like me and people hate me. And actually, if she didn’t say those things, I feel my life’s good. But now part of me is angry at her, and another part of me knows that I can’t be angry at her, or else it will drift me away from God. I feel kinda lost. Cause I can’t pray and be angry at the same time, especially to my own mother. Thank God she’s only here for 4 days. Any longer, then I’ll find it much harder for me to forget.

I’m praying to have Him near. I’m praying for His peace to be in my heart.

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My good friend has just got hitched. Happy for her and the guy (I’ve met the guy and I knew he’s a good person). And as usual, I envy them so much! Aaa…when will my prince come?

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