not myself

Today,

I feel like I’m not myself

.

I’ve said things which I didn’t really mean to

I’ve done things which I think I shouldn’t do

I lied, to myself and to some other people

I feel like I kinda lose control of my mind

I’ve done ‘good’ things, but with wrong motivation

.

What’s happening to me?

*hoping that this will end as soon as my papers are done*

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